I haven’t taken any psychedelics in some time, but when I was I was taking DMT quite frequently. I am a student in America, and I have had many bizarre experiences on the substance that I believe were encounters with Jinn. Some were kind and intelligent, some were not. But on one particular night I met a true servant of Allah SWT. At the time of this trip, my studies were not going well, and I had lost a lot of family. I am a new revert (Shahada 3 months ago alhamdulilah), but I have always believed in Allah SWT. My Imam has praised my fitrah and said he thought I was a Muslim when we first spoke. I believe the reason for this is the insight given to me through these experiences by the blessings of Allah SWT. But at the time of this trip, I was feeling very lost, and I wished to die. I took the DMT on this particularly bad night as a way to either fix my mind or lose it completely. I received a new light that goes beyond both of these. After the dose, my bedroom melted into a blend of color, but the shapes were completely gone. I heard my friend who was in the room speaking words to me, but they were out of order and jumbled. I began to panic. I believed I had lost my mind, and I started to think about my mother. I felt guilt for doing this to her son. I thought of the things I wanted to do with my life and I mourned them. I felt like a waste of life. I tried to find anything in the room I could recognize, but all I saw were blurry lights. Finally, I looked at a stuffed unicorn head I had on the wall in that apartment. (I am in college). For some reason, that unicorn was the only thing that looked correct. It was surrounded by a gold outline of a sphere of light covered in markings that looked like letters I’ve never seen before. I swear to Allah, the head MOVED, and winked at me, before two knights in golden armor of light stepped from out behind her. Wings unfolded and filled the entire room. They displayed their shields and on them were two more guardians each, with their own shields, and they bore an insignia which I remember clearly but I will not write or describe as I feel it is disrespectful. Immediately, I was filled with peace and calm and I knew I was looking at a creature unlike any I had ever met on DMT before. I asked her right away, very simply, “Are you God?” and she did not speak with words but I knew she was speaking and what she was trying to say. She said “No, but I was sent from that place. Come with me.” She exploded into light and I was sucked through a tunnel into a pure white room filled with bizarre creatures. Many looked like Hindu gods, others looked like cartoon characters like Homer Simpson (It’s true!). These were the sorts of creatures I typically met on DMT, but I felt that somehow I was being pulled higher to a next place by the Angel from my bedroom. I had previously placed a level of reverence on DMT creatures. I believed in Allah but I was not above Shirk at this time and believed they may possibly be powerful or divine in some way. But compared to the being which held my hand, I just knew that they were powerless. I was not the least bit interested in staying there. The next place we went was a wall. It was made of green bricks that shimmered like silk. Each brick of this wall was the size of a skyscraper. There were steps running up it, and a path leading downwards below me. There were creatures and people all lined up, walking in a row up these steps, all chained together. As the Angel took me up the wall, we reached the top. The wall had a face and a hand, and the mouth was filled with fire. It used its hand to pick people off of the steps and devour them into its mouth. Above the wall were more steps leading into a sky filled with every color of star, and a very few people from the steps were able to pass through and continue climbing. The Angel explained to me that these were dead souls, and that past this point we would enter the higher realms. The creatures and people that entered the mouth actually seemed happy to go. They were in a lot of pain, but somehow they were willingly engaging in it. The Angel explained to me that this is because they loved the things that kept them from proceeding so much that they did not mind the fire. As we continued higher, I saw a planet covered in fire and lava which bubbled up into hands and naked bodies. These hands grabbed each other and grabbed the bodies and the whole planet became covered in flames and sex and creation. The Angel explained to me that this is where life comes from, it did not explain more. We kept going, I saw bright explosions of colors I’ve never seen. Golden strawberries growing on vines falling from an enourmous tree. Swarms of white bats and rivers stretching into the distance. We were moving up the trunk of this tree and the people kept climbing. Eventually we reached the top, and I saw that the trunk of this tree was not actually a trunk at all, but a statue of a man in a cloak looking up at the canopy, extending his finger up further, which appeared to make contact with the canopy. The people now were wearing the same cloaks, with their heads down reading a book. They continued up the tree trunk in single file in a sluggish fashion. Up here, the sky was black and we were so high up that all I could see was this statue, the cloaked followers, the black sky, and the canopy, which appeared like a flat roof covered in a constantly moving pattern of light extending as far as I could see in all directions. All light and indeed all creation came from this roof and I could feel it radiating down. I asked the Angel what was above it and it said it didn’t know, it had never been, and no one ever had. It told me God was up there, but to remain a creature, nothing could pass the roof. As if to demonstrate, it grabbed me tightly and we started ascending faster than we ever had previously. We got closer and closer to the finger of the statue which had more stairs on it, but as we got closer, I saw that the entire finger was just another statue of the same man extending his finger further. We kept zooming in and each time it seemed like the canopy only got further away as the statue continued to repeat itself. Suddenly, we stopped. I understood it. We spoke for a while, but I will not publicly share what was said, I hope you understand. Suddenly I was back in my room, staring at the winged sphere and the knights. The rest of the room was still a blur. I asked the angel if I was stuck this way. It said “We will not give you a challenge your mind cannot handle. You spend your time second guessing. Doubting your your blessings. You synthesized this chemical, you inhaled it, the things we have shown you are waiting for you, but you are here now. Stop seeking, but take what we have told you and establish it in this world. We will see you again. This situation is your own creation, take control of it.” And it disappeared. I looked at the colors swirling around me, and knew them to be generated by my mind. I took control of them, and commanded the room the reform itself with a relaxed sigh. It did, and I have been happy with the knowledge I gained ever since. I hope the same for all mankind. Peace and blessings of Allah SWT. Thank you for reading.
