A friend had recently taken mushrooms at a retreat in Spain. He described it as life changing. I had been picking edible mushrooms for years, but was now piqued to find liberty caps. they grow here.After learning how to identify them I found a few places nearby and picked them. I then dried them in a dehydrator. I used not very accurate scales to weigh 5g. i think i was off and it was over.
A friend gave me a playlist, said it was essential, as you would loop (didnt know what that meant, but i know now). The playlist was especially designed for this kind of experience Nov19th deep dive.
I ground the mushrooms up and soaked them in lemon (called a lemon tek - meant to bring the experience on quicker).
Took them, in the tent and laid down. Earlier had asked the mrs to check on me.
Within 10m , i had this wave sensation running from my feet to my head. I was like , what the fk, and then the carrier wave came . its like an increasingly loud buzz, like tinitus.
I felt really uncomfortable, and needed to bury myself under the quilt. And in that darkness, the geometric spiral patterns formed, whether i had my eyes open or shut.
The music was crazy, every beat ran through me, and lasted forever. A note would seem like 5 m. The music became this relentless energy, and through my hands i could feel everything pulsing with this energy. The only was i could describe it was everywhere and relentless. At some point i stopped being an observer, and i just dissolved into this relentless energy of the universe.
At some point the mrs came into the tent to check on me, and so i emerged from under the duvet. There were two of her in a kind of slow motion matrix scene. and the sunrays and particles permeating the tent were like matrix code. I said i was fine, and went back under the duvet.
Much of the night I wasn;t able to recall, but on some occasions i became lucid. I remember being thirsty and reaching out to the water flask next to the bed. It was just floating water, no flask, i struggled to drink as the coordination wasn’t there. There was no flask. The effect came in waves every few minutes. and during the low point , i needed to pee, and managed to crawl out of the tent. Or rather i sat up thinking it was subsiding, but it hit again. And so had to crawl.
After about 5 hours I was on the comedown, and less out of it and more introspective. I would lay there notice something and the music, and then go under, only to wake after what seemed ages, to the same beat and time on the clock, this happened serveral times. And it is only the change in music that breaks the loop.
Then the body load came, every muscle strained and stretched, like a contortionist. This went on for over an hour. I was exhausted.
Eventually 9 hours later i emerged from the tent, and stumbled to the house. Needed a towel to shower, and something to eat, was famished. The mrs said i wasn't allowed to stay in the house, she was spooked as she came in a second time, and i had emerged from under the duvet and cackled. So i ate. watching the kittens scratch at the glass inner door. there paws were in slow motion. I noticed a beetle 10 ft away on the window seal. And it could see every detail. My senses were highly tuned.
I went back in the tent and slept.
for at least three days after. the waking world was an illusion and the world i entered seemed more real than real. The experience was a pivitol point in my life, and have never been the same since. I have spent years since learning and reading about Islam, Philosophy and Mysticism, to try and make some sense .
That Autumn i repeated the experience every 2 weeks. You can;t do it straight away as the body becomes immune , and you need double the dose. But also because it was so exhausting, mentally and physically.
I went on to experience DMT, and Ayahuasca several times. And every experience was totally different and profound in its unique way.
