so i am not going to describe the onset or the peak but the roller-coaster come down. probably 4 hours after taking them.
In previous experiences i have had a very strong connection with scent and ancestry. I would be literally chew my hand and smell the palms of my hands. It felt like a genuine connection to my steppe heritage. it was as if i could connect to very distant relatives or people from the steppe just from the pheromones in my hand, I could smell and taste the very essence of my people from the altai mountains and the steppe.
Fast forward to this particular trip . I took 5 g of liberty caps, foraged myself. dried and mixed with lemon (lemon tek)
I can;t remember much of the peak. but the comedown was very vivid. There was a lot of looping, and i would open my eyes after what seamed like hours to see the clock hand had moved minutes. It was amusing.
And then thoughts of my youngest daughter came to me. And i experienced this overwhelming feeling of her deep love for her father. it was so pure and strong, and i weeped for what felt like hours. my heart burst with the intensity. it wasn't my love for my daughter. I could feel her love for me.
Then i had this vivid memory of my wife when we first met. some 20 years ago. That scent on her neck. the pheromones it gave off. Scent has such a strong memory connection. the smell of cut grass in the childhood summers. The smell of the first rains in autumn.
But then just from the vivid memory of that scent of my wife when i first met her. I felt how she felt as a young teenager. A teenager with all the hopes and dreams and expectations of the future. It was so strong. But then it morphed into her parents, and their hopes and dreams, and on and on to her whole ancestry line. It was as if i could feel their raw emotions and what it was like to be them. I was overcome with gratitude and empathy.
This is all so surreal but it was pure sense. I felt what it was like to be a whole bloodline. After i did some research into pheremones and MHC signals , with the peptides contained in the scent mapped to the particular genome.
imagine that on 5g of dried liberty caps , the remembrance of just the scent of my wife when we first met, produced a sense of knowing her hopes and dreams as a young teenager, as if i knew what it was like to be her. and then extended down the entire bloodline.
That whole comedown emotional roller coaster is as vivid today as it was 2 years ago on that very early morning trip